Day Five

It was not as good a day as I had expected. At least, the morning wasn't. I was sleepy in spite of a fairly good night's sleep. (probably because my inner clock has been conditioned for the last ten years to be awake at night and asleep during the day). I had an early morning session with Chris and I was not in the mood for it; there was a lot of questions and I'm not very verbal in the morning so my defenses were weak. The long and short of it was that I cried. I'm not ashamed of that; I knew that would happen at some point and will happen again. I learned a little more about my lack of self esteem and how close to the surface it often is. The day got a little better and after lunch I felt more normal. I did not see Dr. Sargent today but probably will tomorrow.
Brenna will join me with Dr. Sargent on Friday morning. Glad that I'm home now and I hope tomorrow will be better.